-A.J. Cronin
Ohhh, catching up is hard to do..
Well not really, its just the finding where to start that is..
But i decided tonight to make time for myself to just sit, relax and write! I came down to the Starbucks with my LOVEly Raymond is closing tonight to do just that. What else is better then sitting with a white mocha americano, cute music, writing, and seeing my great man? =]
The first thing i thought id write about was this little book that my mom found at the Cal State book store. We both went down for a little day together ( i love spending time with my mom!) to turn transcripts in, look at where all my classes would be, and to look up all of my books.
She found it, and we bought it. This cute little book is called, "Who Moved My Cheese?"
Its this little book about change. and how we act when faced with change. The "cheese" in this story represents what we work for, what we want, or what makes us happy and comfortable with our lives. The cheese is our jobs, our relationships, our type of lifesyles. Anyhow, in this little story, it shows 2 mice, who learn to accept change. There is Sniff, who learns to look for change as it gradually comes, and reacts in a calm reasonable manner. There is Scurry who tends to freak out when change comes his way, and scurries ( hence the names..) when he needs to take care of things.Then there are two people who are placed in the same situation as the mice, basically, their cheese goes, "missing", they must be being tricked, or somebody mustve taken it, but really, its just slowly gone away as they have all enjoyed eating the cheese.
The first human character is "Hem" who denies that any changes have ever occured, and then starts to resist change, as he fears that it will lead to something far worse. And his partner is "Haw" who learns to adapt to new situations in time, when he sees that changing circumstances are leading to something better!
The story goes on to write about how each of these characters deals with the missing cheese, its quite cute!
But, i stopped quite a couple times while i was reading it aloud to my mom on the drive home, and laughed inside my head, and realized some simple yet profound things.
I'd definitely reccomend that you read it! =]
Anyhow, the reason that i bring this book up, besides being awesomely great by itself, is that some of its points, have been really hitting close to home lately.
So... I dont get to go to Cal State this fall semester.
There i said it. I'm not happy about it, but it simply is what it is.
At first, I was just sad about it. I felt like i'd failed, like it was my fault. I didn't want to talk about it, I just wanted to pick up my pieces, and move on.
Not talking about it, helped me to do just that.
My LOVEly, helped reassure me that everything would still work out for us. We would still do all that we wanted with our lives, and that this is probably what was best for us during this time.
He's right.
It's been a little bit hard this week, realizing that i could be in really exciting and interesting classes right now, but i just remind myself, that i will do great things, i am capable of that!
So, instead, of dwelling on that, I will post about happy things!
Ray and i went on a cute, little, wonderful mini vacation to Sacremento this past weekend!!
We went up for the National Ovarian Cancer Coalition Walk/Run. This is something that was really special to me because my aunt who passed from this particular cancer. It was really nice to have Raymond there supporting myself and my family in that.
We drove up on friday, after Ray got off wok. That was quite intense, as we had a little problem with the car, but thats being taken care of!! We just had a nice time driving together. =]
We got up to Christi's house and soon after fell asleep.
The next morning i woke up earlier then everybody else, and got all dressed and ready, and just read by myself. Then everybody else got up, and we took care of Ray's window.
While waiting to get ready to go out for the day, i decorated ray and my numbers, and "in honor of" papers for the walk.
Then we went to this really beautiful and awesome nursery called High Hand Nursery!
Raymond and I really enjoyed ourselves there, all the unique plants, and fall colored trees, made us quite happy!
Awhh, we love eachother!! =]]
Then we went back home and got ready for the walk, went down to Old Sac met up with the family, and walked around a bit, and headed over to Shriner's Children's Hospital ( i think it'd be pretty awesome to work here one day!) for the walk!
Team 'Than!!
Taking Hopefilled Action Now!! =]
Ray and i just walked by ourselves holding hands for the most time, and we just talked and talked, and looked at the cute houses.
About us. My aunt. Me wanting to be an oncologist, but could no longer do that.
Just stuff. It was so nice! I just love him!
Then..
It was a really really great walk!!
The rest of the weekend we spent relaxing, eating, and driving home.
It was nice to have a little time away from everything..
and to come back refreshed, and with a new sense of everything.
=]
