Joys of Teenagers

All day i have been thinking of different random thoughts in my head. About wants and needs, how i feel such an urge toget out of my house as soon as possible. Then this line ran through my head-

"It's funny how I work,When you need be but don't want me, i'll be there, but when you want be but don't need me, i'll be gone"



Said by Nanny McPhee (Not too shabby of a movie i must say) no matter how unnatractive the woman is in that movie. Those words definitley got me thinking about college and movie off and way. While its a year away it feels like so much time, but then it doesnt feel quick enough, but more then that, it makes me think abouut the people in my life, as to wether or not i need them, or if i want them, or perhaps both.

I'm sure we all have our 'types' of people we prefer. Like me, gee whiz, i have a hard time tolerating people who lack common sense. I mean come on!!! But the people in my life, i like to think that i need them. But does that take away from my independence, im not really sure. But i know theres those people who were in your life, shared some memories, and your totally fine not talking with them again. One of those reason, season, or lifetime people you know.

But something weirder, today i was asked questions, that i didnt know how to answer. I answered but i dont know if its lying, or perhaps the frustrating inability to share the truth. Lest you be letting somebody know that you made a mistake, and that you were wrong at some point, showing your imperfection. But it wasnt any of that this time, believe me, it was just 'easier' to not get into it, like i said no, but mentally and in my heart, i totally meant YES! It makes me wonder if theres solid lines as to what lies and truth and such are, of it they are different to all, seen in different aspects, and thought upon differently...


I guess that goes to show, i want a degree in psychology. Maybe because knowing how other people think, can help me organize mine.
And i can help them too...Oh dear, part of my life is a blur right now, it seems im constanly making choices. Not anymore as to what do i want to be. But who? What do i want out of life? Where do i want to go to college ( I think ive got that one figured out) but all demands of life, are finally coming to my attention.




Oh, the joys of being a teenager... It's such a beautiful, messy, growing, make-or-break you experiences...